2005-06-27 - 4:46 p.m.
Hair = past my jawline
Collarbones = always visible
Size five dress and size extra small sweater = fits perfectly
Waking up feeling happy and unconcerned = every morning
The middle two haven't happened since high school when I got sick. The last hasn't happened ever.
I feel good. Just a little more to go.
One year to feel good, inside and outside and everywhere. 23 years of shit, one year to feel better.
Not a bad ratio, really.
Tonight I'm gonna eat Mexican with the pharmacist. I have had 52 ounces of water today. I painted my fingernails and toenails, and they match. I gave away all my furniture to charity today, they're picking it up Saturday morning at eight. I'm gonna sleep on the floor after that. I slept on the floor all the time anyway.
I'm gonna be heartbroken to leave exactly three people. It was four, but I changed my mind. So now number 2 is an even bigger honor, if you think about it.
Go number two!
If the past and present are the same and the future doesn't exist, all three numbers will always be with me, and so I shouldn't be heartbroken.
But I was only 94 percent post-modern.
